OndrunaR
This blog is dedicated to expressing my musings on this Heathen path in my life. Here you will find poetry, personal accounts, general musing, rants, academic questioning, and everything in between. Have a horn of virtual mead and feel free to comment, lend advice, or tell of your own experiences. Thank you.
About Me
- Robert Shawn Rowland
- I am a seeker of meaning, truth, and the Divine. I have been a practicing polytheist since 1997 and a lover of philosophy and theology since even before then. Most of this time I have been a Germanic Heathen, but I have also slowly taken to the practice of Gaelic Reconstructionist Polytheism. I am happily married, a hobbyist musician, a poet, pyrographer, sports fan, and pretty darn good cook. This blog will contain poems, rants, and musings relevant to my ever winding spiritual journey.
Friday, August 30, 2013
An Ancestral Experience...
It is through worship of the beloved dead that we as Heathens and Asatruars connect to our heritage; cultural, spiritual, and physical. It is through the ancestors that we learn important values, life lessons, cultural transmission, beliefs, and the like. For these attributes, a debt is made in our orlog and living the lessons we learn in life is a part of this debt, the love we share with family is another aspect of this debt, and giving honour to the dead is also a part of this debt. This ritual debt is much akin to the same debt we have for our Gods and the spirits of the land. In our faith an important concept is that of a gift, ever seeking a gift in return. For life, love, and learning we give the gift of remembrance and sacrifice.
I ponder on this now, especially so since I have connected with my older half sister, whom I have known about for quite some time but never sought out and who, in turn, never knew of me. Circumstances played out, years in the making, and she found out and found me on Facebook. We have been getting to know each other and it has been a wonderful experience doing so. My point is that I think of this now, because before when I partook of any ancestral honouring, while the paternal line was also in my mind, I naturally thought more of my maternal line. They are the ones who raised me, taught me my sense of ethics, sense of culture, my value system, etc. My grandparents, who were more like parents were the best foundations in life anyone could ask for and both family lines are well represented by intelligent, jovial, down to earth folk. I have had a good family experience so it is only natural to express a bias in that way.
However, that bias is also because until lately, my biological father's line was pretty much just a name...an idea...a matrix of genealogical and genetic information. Now that line has a face, and a voice. There is a subtle quality which makes it more...tangible. I will be influenced by my sister's life and ideas in ways unknown to me, and her likewise. The orlog which is being laid down will influence how I think and perceive any ancestral connections I have to my biological father's line. It is an interesting theological soup to be sure.
So, what is the point of all this? Nothing really. Just throwing out ideas on my blog and trying to make sense of it all. If anything, I guess the point is to not take your ancestors for granted. Now, if your ancestors were horrible people, obviously no one wants you honouring assholes, but there are always other types of ancestors just as there are all kinds of families. Above all, keep an eye out for the twists and turns of life for they may take you down roads you never thought you'd travel. In fact, you might even come to realize that you rather enjoy the ride. Hail the Ancestors!
Friday, March 1, 2013
Njordhr says Hi...again.
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
I suck at blogs
Friday, March 23, 2012
A bede for Ing
Flowing out from within
Holy visage
Wayfarer's stead on harbor's shore
Your illumination shows the way
From whale's road to emerald pastures
Shadow's mirth fails its worth
In the dawning sway
... Of Gearde's wooer
Night's might loses the battle
Neorth's seed takes hold
A mighty oak with leaves of gold
Prosperity and a good year
Holy procession on lighted path
The worthing tests to take
A void of wonders strive to make
A stag of elven might
Lord Ing's vibrant maegen
Fire's garment paves a path true
Flowing out from within
Holy visage
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Dreaming the Dead...
After my grandfather died in 2007 and I took over on the research he was doing for the Rowland-Horne side, and then my grandmother died the next year, I felt like trying to complete my ancestral picture wouldn't be an offense to them(though I know it wouldn't have anyways, but still). I found a bit, but very very little. Then I had the dream. Then I did what my mom told me to do, and voila! I found my half-sister, and through those records found my father, and grandparents, and great-grandparents. With Ancestry.com I have been able to trace back about half of my father's lineage. So while this is all very cool, the point in my writing this is the dream.
There are alot of people who believe dreams have meaning or that spirits, ancestors, etc. will speak to you through them. My religion sees this as nothing odd at all. While not everyone will have or even need experiences like this, dream omens and ancestral spirits are still "common" both today and in the tales from long ago. This experience for me is like picking up a phone calling a friend, no biggie. It should be like this for everyone else who shares that belief, but it isn't.
The vast majority of them are disconnected from the reality of these experiences and how normal they really are if you can understand them and heed them. I understand, even though it is a part of my religion, growing up in secular middle-class America places me somewhat in the position of "whoa! it happened...it's real...and it's mundane!" and not entirely in the "oh, it's no biggie" category, but it still makes me feel sad. Sad for the people who are in the "this is what I believe, but I don't really think it's real" category. It is a good feeling to know that the departed will help us out as they always did if we ever need them, and I just wished others could have that "good feeling".
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Njordhr says "hi"
Sunday, December 12, 2010
I walk this path alone
The dust on my boots
It tells me where to go
When trying to find some
Truth and piece of mind
Searching for a devil's pride
In an angels heart and mind
Still I walk this lonely path
Years of dust built up
Underneath these steps
This pain and sorrow
My smiles try to leave behind
Searching for a devil's pride
In an angel's heart and mind
Searching for a devil's pride
In an angel's heart and mind
Searching! Searching!
For a devil's pride
In an angel's heart and mind
This path it goes around
Under these boots
Flowers have been trampled down
I raise my eyes to the bright sun
My thoughts come to a grind!
Searching for a devil's pride
In an angel's heart and mind
By: Shawn Rowland 8/11/2009